Living My Life to the Fullest – What Holds Me Back
This past week I was reminded of how I can hang on to lingering doubts of myself and my abilities. How this manifests itself in my life is that when I have doubts, I am holding myself back from my potential of living my life to its fullest.
So what does that look like?
For me this week, I was reminded how at times I don’t feel worthy. I truly live a blessed life and sometimes I feel that I don’t deserve all the good things in my life. In my head, it goes on something like: ’When I was an active alcoholic a long time ago, I did things I wasn’t proud of … blah, blah, blah .. so therefore; I don’t deserve to live the life I have today.
When I go to this place in my head; I am blocking myself from seeing how I can continue to grow. I stagnate in my life. Those close to me know; I don’t like to be stuck. I like to grow. I live to thrive.
What I know is that when I am thriving, I am full of life and have more of myself to give to others. I think of it as a stream of light flowing through me to others. If I block the light from myself; I’m blocking my natural ability to share it as well.
So how do you get unstuck?
For me it is first accepting that I am where I am. Once I can accept the facts of how I feel about myself, then I can make the decision to change my viewpoint of myself. I will be the first one to tell you; I wish this was easy as turning a light switch on; but it’s not. For me, it’s faith that if I consciously make the daily effort to change I will change. And I can tell you .. you WILL change if you put forth the effort. It comes sometimes quickly; sometimes slowly; but it will come if you work for it.
This week, I came to understand that I am holding parts of my life story back. It’s kind of like I’m driving around in a car with the emergency brake on. This week I came to understand that I need to have faith and let the emergency brake go. Doing so, I will be allowing more light to flow through me.
So where am I at in the process. I came to acceptance of how I am blocking myself. My hand is on the emergency brake and slowly letting it release.
I feel a sense of freedom, joy and a deep sense of peace. Life is Good.
Please share with me what is holding you back.
Tags: acceptance, getting unstuck, living life, remove doubt, staying stuck
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Indira singh
80 days ago
Hi Debbi,
I am so stuck in my life and I don’t seem to know my direction. My husband asked me to leave him moms house so I left with our 5 year old daughter to Florida . We live here for a month and a half Already. My husband drove us here. He has been coming here every other week because my daughter misses him very much but I find every time he leaves I’m real sad as well as her. He wants us to move back to his mom home whom we’ve been renting for many years but I don’t want to because she is not nice to me but he feels the rent is cheap so we should. I know he goes out with his friends and pretends to be so lonely. He was here this past weekend and instead of him enjoying us he pretended he was playing poker while all the time he was watching porn. I was upset, which he found nothing wrong with that. I don’t have anyone to talk to about my feelings and my daughter is really sad and want to go back to ny,can you give me some advice, I’m scared and not working here yet…. Scary with no one to tell my feelings to
Julie
337 days ago
OMG ! I actually said this very thing to myself this morning!
’When I was an active alcoholic a long time ago, I did things I wasn’t proud of … blah, blah, blah .. so therefore; I don’t deserve to live the life I have today.’
I just had to write and tell you this. I NEEDED to hear what you had to say today.
Thank You Debbi !!
Debbi
337 days ago
Thank You Julie .. Let the Emergency Brake Go!!!!
Love,
Debbi