Living My Life to the Fullest – What Holds Me Back
This past week I was reminded of how I can hang on to lingering doubts of myself and my abilities. How this manifests itself in my life is that when I have doubts, I am holding myself back from my potential of living my life to its fullest.
So what does that look like?
For me this week, I was reminded how at times I don’t feel worthy. I truly live a blessed life and sometimes I feel that I don’t deserve all the good things in my life. In my head, it goes on something like: ’When I was an active alcoholic a long time ago, I did things I wasn’t proud of … blah, blah, blah .. so therefore; I don’t deserve to live the life I have today.
When I go to this place in my head; I am blocking myself from seeing how I can continue to grow. I stagnate in my life. Those close to me know; I don’t like to be stuck. I like to grow. I live to thrive.
What I know is that when I am thriving, I am full of life and have more of myself to give to others. I think of it as a stream of light flowing through me to others. If I block the light from myself; I’m blocking my natural ability to share it as well.
So how do you get unstuck?
For me it is first accepting that I am where I am. Once I can accept the facts of how I feel about myself, then I can make the decision to change my viewpoint of myself. I will be the first one to tell you; I wish this was easy as turning a light switch on; but it’s not. For me, it’s faith that if I consciously make the daily effort to change I will change. And I can tell you .. you WILL change if you put forth the effort. It comes sometimes quickly; sometimes slowly; but it will come if you work for it.
This week, I came to understand that I am holding parts of my life story back. It’s kind of like I’m driving around in a car with the emergency brake on. This week I came to understand that I need to have faith and let the emergency brake go. Doing so, I will be allowing more light to flow through me.
So where am I at in the process. I came to acceptance of how I am blocking myself. My hand is on the emergency brake and slowly letting it release.
I feel a sense of freedom, joy and a deep sense of peace. Life is Good.
Please share with me what is holding you back.